the truth in call of destiny...

do you believe in destiny?...that people are in and out of your lives to fulfill a mission and to be part of you?...and when the time comes that theyl be gone, it doesnt mean that theyre mean, but just simly conveys that their part in your story is over....well, I know Im quite sensitive at times but what I must learn is that life is so wonderful for me to waste...I must avoid the negative side of me...Even if I'm alone, I will be happy...and I must be...family and friends must just be there...storms are just part of every world, and pain is just a pill you must take in order for you to learn...I must switch sides...I must be happy eventnough still hurting and just accepts my fate and destiny coz somehow, somewhere that's the way life goes...

Are there really true friends??

Its been about 6mths since I last smoked a stick or two. But last night, to my surprised, I did'nt suceed upon fighting my own will. I broke my promise to God and to myself. I did smoked again.
Its about past 12 midnight when mom and I had a good talk about life and friends. I felt so depressed at the very moment. Asking why, in the midst of trying to be good, people cant see me through???...rejection and neglection here and there...Are we examined just in the physical outlooks???...Is having a pure heart doesnt qualify anymore for me to be loved by others???..Am I really good???...Or just pretending to be good?...How sad...Well, that only proves that life is indeed unfair in the eyes of man...But of course, I must stay strong, for I have still a strong God within me who pushes me through the hard times...