wow!!!

Im back!!! Wow! Its been 5 years since my last blog! whew! and now, hopefully Im back for good! :) I'll try to blog for more....let the blogging begin! haha

lesson learned

This term is da worst term i ever had...maybe GOD is just teaching me some things to learn...and I thank HIM 4 dat....how i hope this wil not b d worst case

*sigh* and doule *sigh*...

well, all I thought is that my day wud be as normal and boring as usual...but thanks 2 my so beloved friend hu came 2 me n ask me 4 a walk...everything turns out dat gud until we bumped n2 sumbody hus playing a huge part in my lyf 4 da very moment...pain s indeed sharp...I dunno wats up wid me but Im having a little of nostalgia...especially when I'm alone...I love dis special person but I cant do anything but stare...and care with silence and fear...coz deep inside I know that someday we'll never be together...for he olready belongs 2 sum1 else....

Nothing ever Happens by Chance...

It seems that we just began the term so far but indeed time flies so fast that the end is near approaching...And Im hurting again...but that does it...Love is kind....love is pure and without envy...and just take the pain sweetly....*sigh*

the truth in call of destiny...

do you believe in destiny?...that people are in and out of your lives to fulfill a mission and to be part of you?...and when the time comes that theyl be gone, it doesnt mean that theyre mean, but just simly conveys that their part in your story is over....well, I know Im quite sensitive at times but what I must learn is that life is so wonderful for me to waste...I must avoid the negative side of me...Even if I'm alone, I will be happy...and I must be...family and friends must just be there...storms are just part of every world, and pain is just a pill you must take in order for you to learn...I must switch sides...I must be happy eventnough still hurting and just accepts my fate and destiny coz somehow, somewhere that's the way life goes...

Are there really true friends??

Its been about 6mths since I last smoked a stick or two. But last night, to my surprised, I did'nt suceed upon fighting my own will. I broke my promise to God and to myself. I did smoked again.
Its about past 12 midnight when mom and I had a good talk about life and friends. I felt so depressed at the very moment. Asking why, in the midst of trying to be good, people cant see me through???...rejection and neglection here and there...Are we examined just in the physical outlooks???...Is having a pure heart doesnt qualify anymore for me to be loved by others???..Am I really good???...Or just pretending to be good?...How sad...Well, that only proves that life is indeed unfair in the eyes of man...But of course, I must stay strong, for I have still a strong God within me who pushes me through the hard times...

falling???

Does really love moves in mysterious ways???...Well, thats everybody think so...but me???...naaahhh....Ill better not believe for I never want to expect things that aint really gonna happen...As what my title implies.....Im living alone

wow so fast

haaaay....time really flies so fast......sobra....I just plainly dont really know what the future holds...earthly life is really2 uncertain....what I know now s simply 2 be happy and the people around me....this term, I realy found myself so shallow...I almost lost my depth for being addicted in a reality show....But then, I realized that everybody has their own weaknesses and strenght....all we have to do s accept it wholeheartedly as a part of our lives...no regrets, no pain....I learned to enjoy every minute of my life....I realized that ones happiness s still in their own hands.....